Carolynne Mary Martin - Online Memorial Website

Nini, remember last year when i didnt have a valentine and you suprised me with 3 ballons at school and a card...i still have all of them in my room...i miss you and ur random self..u always knew how to make me laugh..adn wen we ould have our stupid little "sister bonding" moments...haha..well on valentines day its my turn to do something for you...i love you nini...MWAH you are STILL amzing..adn never cease to amaze me.. <3 CATY ur big sister

Hey i juss want to say that i never had the priviledge to meet you nini but my friend tiffany did, and i was informed about everything through myspace, but i frequently asked tiff about you wen i heard about the incident even though i didnt know you browsing through this site really hit me as if i did. I wish i would have had the opportunity to have met you to be able to share memories too.

Each day that I wake up and go to Cati's room to wake her up I have no choice but to pass by your door. I open it hoping to see you there but your bed in made and its empty.  I hold my tears back and go to Cati's room and wake her up to go to school.  Baby how I miss the days that both of you were runing around the house getting ready and yelling at each other to go to the bathroom to get ready.  I miss your knocking at my bedroom door to say bye mami.  I miss getting home and finding you asleep on the sofa.  I miss you telling me you are hungry and me making you picadillo with white rice.  You loved that and you also loved your fried eggs and home made french fries to dip in the eggs.  You were always so appreciative of anything I would make.  You enjoyed cooking too.  I miss those delicious omellets with cheese you made.  They were always awesome.  I miss kissing your soft cheecks and your nose.  You were adorable and I love hugging you so tight.  I always called you my angel.  Little did I know you were one already...you were wise behond your years.  You always told me all your secrets and we talked about so many things.  You were so easy to talk to because you really listened when people talked to you.  Your eyes were always with a smile behing them, your beautiful chocolate pools for eyes that you had.

I have your junior picture on the computer desk because I feel like you are still listening to me.  I just wish that I could hear your voice baby, I just wish....

You are my little baby for ever I still can not believe that my sweet, happy baby is gone from my life here on earth.  I love you so much baby  I don't ever think I will believe that you are actually gone from this life.  I miss you and I don't know how much longer I can endure this pain.  I know I must go on living and take care of Cati...I will do this for as long as God allows me to.  I miss my chuckie, so much.  Grandma and Grandpa are trying to be strong but they are not doing too good.  Even though they try putting up a front for my sake to be strong they can not hide from me how much they miss you.  They have always been there for all of us and they say they will be still until the very end.  Take care of them baby they are getting older and this pain they have is very hard.  Remember that Grandma was in the delivery room when you were born and she was there again to see you pass to heaven.  She says that you were the very light of her eyes and grandpa just stares at your picture and tears up.  We all miss our sunshine.  Be with us as often as you can, we love you baby for ever and ever.  BIG HUGGS and KISSES to you.  I love my NINI, My Carolynne.

Wow all i have to say is that i miss you and im realizing more and more that life is to short nini i still cant believe your not here with me how we would tell eachother everything. and share homework lol all the project we did together cause our other partners didnt want to help that was the best hahah im so glad we got so close i remember last year ms.barnes class you sat across from me and we would talk all the time you told me the first day that you had failed 3 times and that you were 19 lol i started believing you until the middle of the school year and all the guys you were talking to hahah i remember i would always bump into you give you a huge hug and whisper in your ear if this is the guy hahah you would laugh so much i miss that so.. I saw Degas this weekend wow i started crying but you know how he is he stopped me right away he also let me ride the little motocycle thing but shhh thats between you and me! Alex also misses you so much we always talk about you and how he would pass by anatomy and you were the only one to see him hahah you would jump up Girrafa! i miss you so much religion is not the same were watching a movie hahah no not like the ripped of version of mean girls but freedom writers i just think about how much fun we would have if you were still here but i cant think like that i have to move on till i see you again but i still will always think about you and pray for you! And oasis hahah i go their all the time i remeber the time we bumped into eachother we stayed together the whole night talking doing hukkah! you loved that place! I also always light a incent for you i hope you like the one i left you. I need to go visit you i promise with all my heart i will wow.. this gets harder while time passes by i actually feel that your gone i know your taking care of us down here i guess ill wait to see you up there cant wait! I also want to say I love you Lucy and expect my visit soon! To you nini you will always always be in my heart dont ever forget and please show me your near at times! Also come in my dreams we can talk exactly 8 hours lol! I LOVE YOU BABYGIRL! I guess God really wanted a beautiful angle and your were the best choice!!! And your mom is right you were the sweetest person i have met at times people thought that was wierd but i acept you. Now they realize you really were we all miss you and will never forget you! I remember the letters to the soldiers we wrote them and colored them i still share your locker atleast i have something we had together at school i still wear my friendship braclet and i made one for tiff! Who thought id be calling you my angle instead of my chonga lol even though you werent! I will miss you! LOVE YOU NINI!

omg Lucy that is so beautiful...It's so hard without Nini here. We wrote those letters in Mr.G's class...Nini was always so caring..We all miss her so much. Nini please watch over us and help us go through all of this it's just so hard. In my mind i know that you are in paradise, but in my heart i want to be able to hug you and talk to you. I could always talk to you about anything and you always had the best advice. I love you angel. We are all so lucky to say that we had an angel in our lives.

Hi my beautiful angel.  Today I finally had the courage to pick up your school back pack, the one you used last.  It is the one we got at Universal Studios with the Cat in the Hat in the front. As I proceded to open it I found your school notebooks with your perfect manuscripted letters so well organized and highlighted. I have never seen such organization and neatness.  As I read through your notes that were taken in class this school year I found an envelope that was not sealed,  in it there was a perfecty folded letter written on regular notebook paper, as I open it and began to read it I started to cry because it just shows how caring and concerned you were for others.  The letter read as followed...

Dear Soldier,

Hey! My name is Carolynne.  I really appreciate what you guys are doing for our country.  I'm sure you heard this a lot but I'll tell you anyways.

I pray for your safety everyday in school. God is looking over you all. I pray that you stay doing an amazing job defending our country.  Can't wait till you guys come back.  I have a few friends that are in the Navy and military so I pray really hard for you guys.  We owe every one of you so much and when you come back people will welcome you with open arms.  Take care!   ( and she signs the letter with a drawn heart and her full name "Carolynne Martin".

I will send this letter for you and with a picture of you my love and I will let the soldiers know  that you passed away before you could send this beautiful letter to them.  I still have the last gift you gave me the basked you weaved with yarn at your school.  I will treasure it for ever.  I will talk to you soon, as I always do my love.  Some day we will be together again,  I love you and let God know that I love him and he is always in my life and so are you my angel.  I have to stop writing because I can not see the screan with all my eyes full of tears.  i love you I love you for ever and ever.  Good night Baby.

 

 

oh nini, every weekend as i'm looking through my phone and going crazy calling and texting everyone i always go across you in my contacts and i know if you were still here with me we'd be having an awesome time, along with all the other awesome times we had together!! lately i've just been like shit man.. you were such a loving and sweet girl... i wish i would've hung out with you a lot more like we'd always say we would but i'm glad that before you left we actually started hanging out A LOT cause you were getting close to me, gaby, ash and andrea.. we loved it being us 5. i didn't end up doing anything tonight cause idk i just don't feel like it. ever since the accident i haven't really done much.. the last crazy night i had was when you slept over gaby's with us =) and we did it extra big and it was with youuu! oh nini i miss you so much it's incredible. i remember the first time we met freshman year in 1st period and i didn't know anyone and you were like one of my first friends. and then when it was me you and december in 3rd period but december sat between us or i think i was 1 person away from december idk i don't remember. and i remember when i was going out with eddie, and you were going out with mike and we would always talk about them lol and when they got into that stupid fight but we were at this girl's 15s and they made up.. and then i remember when eddie broke up with me and how you were there for me.. and how much better you made me feel and till today only the angels know how much i appreciate that. i haven't been through much in my life so that was pretty bad for me lol. i'm never gonna forget p.e. with you 4th period how i was always on your sidekick haha =) with your cat in the hat book bag thingy. and how we would share eye liner like everyday! when you never liked sharing it with anyone but you trusted my hygiene lmaoo. i still remember that day in p.e. with december too when it was the 3 of us and we were takign pictures and u kissed dee on one side and i was on her other side haha we were such losersss. and i'm never gonna forget 7th period last year when mrs. llontop called u caroline and you hated it you were like noo its carolynneeee. remember natalie's birthday getty? thank god u were there because i wasn't close to anyone else there lol besides you and we were together the whole time and we agreed to go clubbing asap lmfao nd it allllmost happened, but that night we were idiots and didn't bring our purses. ahhh remember that night lmfao it was so much funnn... on the way back to gaby's house when we were squished in the car lmao and u were sitting on me and i was like nini, don't move cause i have to pee and ur squeezign me lmaoo and when we all didn't fit on gaby's bed and you and me were the sacrificial lambs that had to sleep on the floor with the comforters lol... and the next morning i woke up super early and since nobody else was awake i would like poke u to wake up and talk to me cause i was booored... lmfao i was so annoying to you. and remember CLASS TRIP. OH MY GOD that had to be the funniest day of my life, we made up something perverted out of everything in magic kingdom haha i still have that picture we took at the restaurant loolll... and i have the splash mountain picture on my dresser! ur face is priceless. and remember when u left with us after school to bk and we took u to our old school.. st. agatha.. i'm gonna miss you pinching my butt every single day after 5th period to say hi to me. it's not everyday that i have friends that go out of their way in a whole crowd full of annoying freshman and shoving upperclassmen just to say hi to me, AAAND make sure my butt hurt for the next 5 minutes. lool. i'm smiling thinking of all our wonderful memories together and how cherished they are inside my heart...... since my sweater got stolen and i was really cold i remember when u lent me ur green sweater.. and the very last time i saw u was that friday... u were walking into b building and i was walking out.. and u were like heeeeeeeey MY SWEATER! and i was like NONO PLEASE IM COLD! lmaoo and you were like ok fine give it to me in detention. a202. which i didn't show up to... lol... but nini, you left me something soo personal.. it's like i have a little peice of you left with me. you are my new inspiration for strength.. whenever i feel like i can't hold on any longer, i think of how you held on for your life... but now i know you're in the glory of god, where there's no pain, no suffering.. just eternal life, happiness and unity with god. say hi to my grandpa for me. ily and there's not a day that i don't think about you. rip.

my love.

the worst thing happend to me today... a man came into my house while no one was home exept my mom. he pretended that he was fixing my gate that was currently broken. he knocked on my door and my mom opend it and he attacked her. she wrestled him and fought back as hard as she can. he chased her around the house. she realized where my dog was so she ran to my room to let him loose. she tripped, hit her head and passed out. he left without doing anything exept tearing her shirt and leaving scratch marks on her. she's fine and nothing was taken. the reason im telling you this is because i want you to do me a favor and tell my moms guardian angel that i love him/her soo much and thank you for looking out for her. i know the angel guarded her well because nothing happend to her.

 

i miss you nini. i wish i can call you now and just talk to you so you can make my day like you used to :/

 

i love you. And thanks for looking out for my mom and Gus im glad they are both ok :]

 

-Ruddy

Afterglow

 

I'd like the memory of me to be a happy one.

 

I'd like to leave an afterglow of smiles when life is done.

 

I'd like to leave an echo whispering softly down the ways.

 

Of happy times and laughing times and bright sunny days.

 

I'd like the tears of those who grieve, to dry before the sun

 

Of happy memories that I leave when life is done.

my love...

 

its been a while since i've been on this page. because every time i get on it i cry soo much. i miss you soo much and i promise im going to watch over your loved ones down here as much as i can. i was with your mom, step dad and caty the other night and your mom mentioned that you loved animals. that reminded me of that day that we were talking on the phone and i told you about all those animals i had in my house. you asked me if you can see them one day and i said sure. i feel sad that i couldn't get to show you. i love you soo much.sometimes  i stare at your photo that i have of you before i go to sleep and just think back of our little memories. i love you. and thanks for being such an amazing friend. see you in my dreams and one day in heaven.

 

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<3

 

-ruddy