I came across this poem the other day and it made me think so much of you Nini.

 

"When Tomorrow Starts Without Me"

When tomorrow starts without me, and I'm not there to see

If the sun should rise and find your eyes all filled with tears for me;

I wish so much you wouldn't cry the way you did today,

While thinking of the many things we didn't get to say.

I know how much you love me, as much as I love you,

And each time you think of me, I know you'll miss me too;

But when tomorrow starts without me, please try to understand,

That an angel came and called my name and took me by the hand,

And said my place was ready in heaven far above,

And that I'd have to leave behind all those I dearly love.

But as I turned to walk away, a tear fell from my eye,

For all my life, I'd always thought I didn't want to die.

I had so much to live for and so much yet to do,

It seemed almost impossible that I was leaving you.

I thought of all the yesterdays, the good ones and the bad,

I thought of all the love we shared and all the fun we had.

If I could relive yesterday, I thought, just for a while,

I'd say goodbye and kiss you and maybe see your smile.

But then I fully realized that this could never be,

For emptiness and memories would take the place of me.

And when I thought of worldly things that I'd miss tomorrow,

I thought of you, and when I did, my heart was filled with sorrow.

But when I walked through heaven's gates, I felt so much at home.

When God looked down and smiled at me, from His great golden throne,

He said, "This is eternity and all I've promised you,

Today for life on Earth is past but here it starts anew.

I promise no tomorrow, but today will always last,

And since each day's the same day, there's no longing for the past.

But you have been so faithful, so trusting and so true,

Though there were times you did some things you knew you shouldn't do.

But you have been forgiven and now at last you're free.

So won't you take my hand and share my life with me?"

So when tomorrow starts without me, don't think we're far apart,

For every time you think of me, I'm right here in your heart.

_David M. Romano

 

Even though we didn't have time to say enough I know I'll never forget the memories I have of you. I miss you so much, class really isnt the same without you. I still hope that one day I'll walk into class and see you there, sitting in the seat next to me. I'm reminded of you in so many ways. Ily loquita<33

 

Nini,

This will probably embarras  you but when you were a little girl about 3 years old, your dad and I were watching a late movie and all of the sudden we see you go into the kitchen and pull down the dishwasher door open. Your dad immediately said don't tell her anything and don't touch her because she is sleep walking. So we didn't then you proceeded and began to pee as if you were on the toilet.  When you were done you closed the dishwashers door and went back to bed.  Your dad and I had to clean the mess but were laughing histerically. 

I also remember that you were awesome with frogs.  One time I see you carrying this large frog that you picked up from the shore of the lake we lived on and this frog's legs were longer than your own, I remember I startled you when I yelled," put that thing down "and with your cute little face you looked at me and put the frog down but before you put it down you gave it a big kiss on the mouth.  i was totally freaked out, so I brought you in quickly and washed your mouth and hands with untibacterial soap.  That frog must have fallen in love with you because after that it used to visit you and jump to you each time you were outside playing.  I love you Chukie and I miss you.  You will always be my angel. Take care of Cati, she needs you and misses you very much.

hey gorgeous

you remember that time in 7th grade when we were shooting those hornet things with the rubber bands??? i remember i accidentally hit your ear and it got SO red ha ha that was pretty funny. but yeah i miss you. stay close angel because i need you

 

 guide me in my life love

Wowww lol I have sooo many memories of you i don't even know where to starttt!!

When you came into school 8th grade and you told me like your whole life story in the library and about living in tennessee and i always used to rank on you because of your accent :) lol but you finally learned how to speak spanish in high school.. which i found out one day at dolphin when you were with all ur colombian friends...lol and how we ued to spend hours on the phone over the summer ...and CHARLES...haha how we used to talk to him and about how "hot" he was...lol and i remember how that week before the accident we were talking about what a creep he was now... lol and all our WIERD ASS conversations before 4th period...mhh and the first day of school when u were like WTF YOU COME HERE...damn man you dont know how much im missing you....one of the most amazing people i have ever met. You always were so happy and gave such a good vibe and i know your up there in heaven making everyone laugh with your dorky laugh and that gorgeous smile. I love you bebigirl <3333

thanks to every one who has supported me though this time of need i really thank u and may god bless u just dont let this teaching go to waste <br />dont start driveing carelessly again or under the infulence<br />and plz be careful about what u do and how u do things<br />we teenagers are not invisable we are prone to these casualtys unexpected casualtys not meant to happen(in our world) but were destined<br />i really appreiciate the support and the help from u guys my friends nini's friends and family.<br />plz know that u not only gained an angel but gained a friend here aswell<br />feel free to contact me @<br />786 355 1772<br />text 786 547 7495 at anytime <br />once again thanks!<br />life is a highway i ride allday <br />and now i cant wait <br />to see my baby at the end of it<br />god bless u all and ur familly<br /><br />memorial page<br />http://carolynne-martin.last-memories.com/index.php

nini. i miss you soo much. i remember those days you would call me and we would talk on the phone for ever and talk about how much you wanted to find the right guy for you. then i introduced you to charles that night at the cove. you two were meant for each other. i love you soo much. i still have the card you gave me for my birthday saying that i was turning 18 when i really was turning 19.  it made me laugh because you knew i was really turning 19. now all those crazy moments will be memories. im really happy i shared my 19th birthday with you. eventhough i had the biggest fever. you were always there for me when i needed you. and even when i was just hanging out. i miss those random texts i got in class. now ill only be seeing you in my dreams. i think your family is soo amazing. i told some of your friends that if i ever met my father i wish he would be like yours. he's soo strong and i know he's proud of you. just be here for me by my side. i love you soo much nini.

 

rest in peace.

 

-Ruddy

 

ill see you when my time comes, just wait for me with my favorite lolipops :]

baby i miss u so much im crying right now

u mean so much to me nini im so lost i dont know what to do

like i feel like if i am a baby learning how to crawl and get up on my own 2 feet

baby i want u to know that ur not dead in our hearts u will live 4 ever

memories is all i have and they are all good

nothing bad at all baby i wish u could be here so i could hug u but ur not and that eats me up inside that i cant hug u or by u herseys pies from bk or buy u crocs or anything u wanted cuz i always did even tho sometimes i dident wanna get up in the middle of the movie  to go get u something

but now i regret it and i just realized how precious a body is but im ready 4 my time to go and i will take it with my arms open just becuse i know that  u will be waiting 4 me a heavens gates watch  over me and keep me safe

i miss u babe!(my chimi chonga)

im still ur puta puto

and ur sister is always my puta puti

i love u and i will always miss u when i get my bak tattoed i will put pics up so u and every one can see it

babe i know earth is an awsome place and its so beautiful

but deep inside i know u left 4 a reason and where u are now

should be so amazing so incrdible words nor a bible can put in to words

i know ur with me and im going to do and live life how u would want me to i cant stop stressing that

ur my love and will always be

u changed my life 4 the better but i wish i could have thanken u

be for ur calling

i know ur home in gods kingdom

i hope i could see u there sometime (soon)

i cant kill my self becuse i will go to hell(even tho i want to)

but i will always have u in my heart and head till the day i  can go up to see u

i miss u and u have amazing friends that have helped me try to get over this crisis

nikki,rudy,yessenia,vanessa,gus,marite,maxie,kathy,andrea,vergio,jeyzel,robert(now ur sisters bf thank the lord about time right babe),tiffany and soo many more that my fingers are getting tierd

babe i would love to here ur ring tone ring one more time on  my phone just once

those times that i wasent able to pick up my calls

i would do anything to recive them now

be by my side at all times and every one else that needs u

like kanye west says "if it dont kill me it could only make me stronger"

and like what tim macgraw says "only the good die young"

and what tupac says"if u make threw the night theres a brighter day"

those quotes kinda summs it all up

babe if anyone asks me if i ever have met and angel i cant say no becuse u walked in to my life and as u were one here u shall be one in heaven

god is lcuky to have u with him!!!!

ur a great asset!!!

trust me i would know

love u and keep me safe

babe

R.I.P

nini

i once told u if i cant hear ur heart ur to far away

now i cant hear ur heart beacuse ur inside mine

love u baby

R.I.P

 

 

i honestly didnt talk to her much during high schoo, but i went with her to class trip in 8th grade and we hung out together with barby,karla, and kristy. God how i miss those days. its sooo hard to see this happen. i rememebr summer after 8th grade year i went to a baseball game with her and on the ride back home she was prank calling victor and she would say "do you have chipmunks in your backyard cause i want some!" lol....and then we fell in the pool. she even covered for me when i told my mom that they "pushed" me in. she was always smiling never did i see her mad or sad. *sigh* god im guna miss her soooo much. imy nini. you will always be in my prayers and in my heart. save us a seat up there. watch over us. ILY

i remember i had to go to summer school my 8th grade year and you were going to be new in little st. brendan and you had summer school also and we would always talk & we couldn't wait till our breaks to talk more. i remember my freshman year you were in 8th grade and i would call you after i was done with school to meet up with you and we would walk to the field or other places. though after we became a bit distant. i will never forget you. i am going to miss you soo muchh! but one day i will see you again & we will take walks togeather =] i <3 you!!!!!!!